Hm.. today went on almost quite smoothly and expected.. just as i dreamt last night?( Well just sidetrack a bit... i actually dreamt i was make the pastor last nite in my dream and speaking to u all like wat Uncle David does.. lol.. )... everything went on peacefully and systemically.. but just that i learnt that is not fun to be chairman when u got to speak with some ulcers stuck in ur mouth... Zzz.. apparently i am just trying to make myself sounds ok or at least "normal" that i actually bite my lips again and again while i am trying to open my mouth as wide as possible to speak as "clear" as i could.. did u all manage to see?? haha...haiz..nvm... but the bigger i open the more pain i got to suffer.. LOL... then when i went to the toilet.. it was bleeding all over again... lol.. but dun worry too much.. is ok.. coz.. the doc had brief me about this before.. so i'm not realli suprised to see blood.. O.o... Well.. den during teabreak i confirmed with aunty michelle again that i am scheduled to be the interpretor ( Finally ... the nightmare comes!!! ) for dunno which week of june.. haiz.. n once again getting me quite anxious again.. lol.. hope that i would be fine.. ^^... Haha... hm.. needless to say.. i went choir alone ONCE AGAIN...thx to someone by the name of Lee *** ****.... lol.. and got to sing my parts solo again.. sigh.. why is these things keep happening to me sia.. lol.. but no matter how hard i try to understand and interpretting wat those 5 irritaing lines and those ailen symbols are trying to tell me.. it also make me more and more a lost as to wat am i singing.. lol.. or did i even got the correct notes.. coz.. all i heard from the conductor was that.. " Good Good Good!..." " Thats the way!" Well.. i realli dun have anything to comment on this.. all i am thinking now was.. is he trying not to discourage me by saying these kind of things? lol.. i would nvr know unless i dun scared to lose face and actually bold enough to go and ask him ... haiz.. SO THE CONCLUSION IS... i would nvr able to get the answer i wanted.. but then something interesting or rather i would say "weird" struck my mind in the middle of the practice.. guess wad? I WAS ACTUALLY TELLING MYSELF THAT I LOVE BEING PART OF THE CHOIR AND I AM ENJOYING IT.. =)... Well ..i noe some of you would be quite shock to see this but wat does tt shows?? ( i am sure the one who type this post is not jeff?... or u would say did jeff took his medicine today??? ) i dun dare to say much.. but then i am sure God must be doing something behind it... so i might as well accept it.. since i am happy and enjoying.. haha.. suddenly feel so holy sia.. lol.. hm.. just like wat pastor willie ask us during sunday sch.. u all still rmb?? it goes something like.. Describe a time when you had a deeps ense of power and presence of the Holy Spirit in your life? ... lol.. i have been pondering over this question for the whole of my dinner sia... and i start to get the answer lies within my case... which is...now at this very moment i could commuicate to God in a more personal way which simply means i got closer to him in a huge leap.. hm.. Well.. does this answer rings any bell for u all?? lol.. well if it doesn't den i also dunno how to help u liao.. coz.. i tink everybody had diff experience with God.. and i think my encounter had just came .. Haha...