woah.. is realli a long long time since my last post.. urm.. i tink around 5 days close to 6 ba.. LOL.. am i really tt busy ??? haha.. well actually can say so ba.. this week and next have quite a few projects due.. such as my PHP programme on BMI.. and marketing and organisational behaviour.. Argh!!! i am gg mad soon liao.. lol.. and to think the week after next i will be having my LONG LOST GD FRIEND... which is TERM TEST!!! lol.. how sia?? and to think i still have not bother printing out my lec notes for each subjects.. unlike my other classmates.. they are already having stacks after stacks of notes waiting for them to digest .. but wat abt me??? still fooling ard with my grp of "slacker" friends.. lol.. haha.. but nvm ba.. i tink.. is probably normal and we had been like this for the last two sem and still manage to get some "见得下世面的" result.. lol.. so i tink i probably will still be fine this time round ba?? onli that i had to pia a few night b4 exam again.. lol.. well there is no need for u all to guess.. just had to stay tune to my future post and hoping for something positive preferbably.. lol..
Sigh.. realli must be getting rid of this habit sia.. if these carrys on to my army life and work.. i tink i would either by killed by the commandor in camp or simply i lose my job within 3 months.. lol.. haha.. but lets be positive!!! dun be negative ya?? rmb this someone?? lol.. so in conclusion.. i tink is realli time i start to sort of "disciplining" myself?? but again... will i ever able to do that??? sigh... !!!!

Today went through the "long waited" EBM presentation and our group is like totally screwd up i would say.. Zzz.. imagine our question is on E-business but then the problem is our ppt slides has nth to do with E-business itself.. den is like realli no link lo.. i personally realli feel that if there is a hole in the classroom i might just as well hid inside it and never coming out.. lol.. imagine the whole class and the teacher are all expecting "something" from each group and when it comes to our turn is realli like ... urm.. TOTAL FAILURE!! .. and needless to say we were " shoot" badly by the fried rice teacher and we are like keeping quiet and stun throughout the Q&A session and this also means that our marks is gonna be the "highest" in the class lo.. haiz.. but this kind of thing who can we blame.. is not like we never do our research.. although i admit that we onli didn't cover the topic in depth enough.. but the main issue i believe is we are sort of "over-confidence" with our own intepretation of the questions..if not our group.. is ME ba.. i tink i am just thought i understand the questions and teachers comment that well.. and to think they ask me all the things for comments and i am actually giving them the wrong answer.. Well.. dun say is 100% wrong.. but just that the answers/ comment i gave them is not really relevant to our project.. as in EBM.. haiz.. furthermore..本身对老师有偏见 .. is also another reason y our project fails this time.. coz seriously we realli nvr being attention to wat she say coz all we are thinking was that she is just like keep on xia laning our research no matter how much effort we put in den is like realli discouraging la.. sigh.. but nvm ba.. there is still phase 2 to go and i tink this time i will prove the other group and the teacher wrong perception of our group !!!! hoo!!!

Hm.. today is our sch CCN day and the whole sch is ending lesson at 12.. and since we dun like crowded places we decided to have our class outing... haha.. but this time it seems better at least coz at least tis time we have the gals following and not like the forever " guy and loitering" outing.. haha.. Well our orginal plan was to go K box together coz there is whr OUR FIRST EVER FULL CLASS OUTING WAS HELD.. but looks like the same scenario could nvr be repeated coz apparently.. some of us rejected the idea so in the end... onli the gals went in and the boys went to slack ard in the arcade... lol.. so the boys went slacking again in the arcade for abt one hour den started walking around while waiting the gals out from their song singing session.. lol.. and once again... the same thing happen.. one of my frd.. well manage to get another gals number.. well i dun wish to elaborate further coz i dun see anything that concerns me.. plus i am quite sleepy.. and tml still have match so i better hurry up.. LOL...

So after much waiting.. the gals are out from K Box and we went over Suntec for dinner.. whew!! lucky this time is not me who paid the GST liao.. haha.. lucky got those gals.. if not i might be the target to consume all the GST AGain.. LOL.. so after dinner we spilt into two groups again.. the gals actually decided to went home and the boys wanted to go chill out at bugis.. so we went walking some weird route from city hall to bugis.. and believe me.. is realli quite amazing and fun when u acutally can walk to bugis by just crossing a bridge and two road.. LOL.. We went to the bugis junction did some form of " Window shop".. coz it was already 10 plus so the onli thing we could see was just shops with onli wondow diaplay.. lol.. den we sat down at Starbucks to rest a while to stall time for the last train b4 we left for home.. haiz.. and we acutally started discussing our idea to 創业 during our third year SIP programme.. and suprisingly ... we are actuallly quite enthu abt it.. realli dunno is it is a new topic that we had never touch on before or is it they are realli keen to start a business.. coz is not realli easy to start one.. judging from wat we hear and know abt entrepenuship... LOL.. is realli hard and a lot of planning to be done.. and most importantly.. do we acutally have that ability and determination to run the business even thou we might be making losses for the starting months.. the answer is still unanswered.. i tink we got to wait till our year 3 den everything will be clear.. LOL.. but nevertheless... we realli brainstorm quite a lot of things and ideas keep coming in.. and we began to evaluate pros and cons of each idea.. haha.. dun tink is lame.. but to me i realli enjoy discussing these kind of things with my frd.. haha.. but nvm la.. start or dun start is not up to me to decide anyway.. if they are realli keen i see no point in stopping them so by all means chip in ... haha..

Haiz.. time realli fly very fast hor.. so fast 3 weeks since i started sch april.. lol.. seriously i dun seem to be learning anything except for the otbs subject.. lol.. Other than that.. subjects like OB ( organisational behaviour).. DBIS.. and EBM!!!!... i dun seem to be learning anything.. as in i cannot understand the overview of these subjects even up till now.. which means i dun realli know what actually are those things i had been reading over and over again... plus the EBM teacher treat us so "good" what should i do ??? sigh... how sia..!!! Exams are coming and projects, presentations are all coming up these few weeks.. and i got to hand in a proposal on my presentation on my jap CDS by thurs.. lol..why they go and move the deadline much earlier... y Vesak day fall on Thurs but not Wed.. and not forgetting there is still my PHP BMI chart to do.. haiz.. another complicated coding shit.. sigh... am i able to cope?? will i die from exhaustion!?!? lol.. Well.. i tink is gonna be another two "stress" week for me just like last two sems.. haha.. all my work are going to be done in this two impt week.. although is seem rushing but no matter wat.. by hook or by crook i MUST finish them.. !!!!!!

Whew!!! Finally our group manage to cook up the final product for our EBM project...never waste our last night effort... although i dun dare to say it is "well done" but i tink my group had given in their 101% hardwork for these... seriously we did not spent hours like what the other group had on this project but anyway lets just hope now that everything would be fine when we are do our presentation next friday... and the "fried rice" teacher would be satisfied... lol... just wan to get through these asap.. haha

Today i had lunch at this coffee shop just opposite and i saw this small kid with sch uniform eating noodles with a relatively "old" woman which i assume is her grandmother ba.. i did not realli notice him at first coz i was too hungry and was busy finishing my food and also i was too busy "shooting" the "ghost" liao.. lol.. but i got the first glance of him when i had finished my food.. there he was squatting on his chair eating his noodles and this suddenly remind me of things happen in the past..lol

I realli dunno is "qiao" or wat.. but i seems to be dreamt of my godparents these few nights.. lol.. and seeing this kid eating his noodles reminds me of my 亁妈... As i have mentioned in my previous post.. i dun live with my mum when i was young.. so i used to live with this "family" and now they had become my god parents... haha.. Well.. so my this 亁妈 will bring me down for breakfast everyday at the nearby shopping center at 大埔中心.. ( well....the location is not the impt issue here) and everybody in the 茶餐厅 will start odering "一个A 餐, 两个B啊 !!!".. does these phrase remind u all of anything??? well although this is just some normal terms u heard in H.K... but as a young kid many years ago.. these words sounds so "exciting" for me.. and my the meal i love the most is none other than 沙嗲牛肉公仔面... well this is probably onli the only dish which i can eat 24/7 for one month without getting sian of it.. mayb it is the very food i registered in my limited brain cells.. therefore i had such a deep impression of it ba.. lol.. but anyway i had this almost everyday during my stays with my 亁妈 from young.. and everytime when i am crying and sad.. she would always bring me back there and order a bowl of noodles for me and is realli like miracle or sld i say computerised " result" i would actually smile after i eat the first mouth of the noodles.. isn't that suprising?? lol.. i mean i dun tink u all would know these kind of things.. but now i actually i let it out myself.. haha..

But wat so special abt this bowl of noodles?? i tink this may be bothering u all ba.. actually everything which remind me back of god parent is impt and big to me.. i mean.. they are reali impt at least to me.. although i dun write it on my face but i realli wanted them to know.. u see ah.. someone who had taking care of u since u are few months till u noe how to walk and actually start to attend sch?? isn't tt the most impt part of ur life.. i mean y some kids like my sister sticks so close to my mother 24/7 even she is primary four now.. lol... is simply because they know and remember who is gd to them and takes care of them since young.. Well i am not saying that my parents dun treat me well from young.. although is always the case when we quarell.. u noe?? when 意见出现分歧... there is bound to be arguments.. but nvm.. isn't it true that arguments bring ppl's relation closer?? haha.. i tink someone actually said this to me last time.. rit?? lol.. i dun rmb anyway.. but in my case the one i see most when i was still learning how to walk was my 亁妈 so i see no surprise that i still think she holds an important role in my life.. her teaching... her care.. will always remind in my heart.. :D... haiz.. now i realli wan to rush back immediately and treat her go back to the 茶餐厅 again lo.. haha.. but too bad i got to stuck here study... lol.. sigh.. but cheer up ba.. i will going back this dec i hope so by then i could see her liao ...haha.. 希望距地一家过得开开心心... 愿主祝福他们一家吧！...haha

Haiz.. our first so called " friendly" match is over finally on Sat.. and guess wad! since i am using these kind of dull tone which simply means the result is not realli as wat we had expected..lol...Well but what should we say about this?? We had no former background in this sports although some of us do play with friends like me during our free time, but does this means we had enough experience?? Apparently it does not since the score tells us everything we are lacking of... right? haha.. Well.. actually we had already did our best liao but i tink mayb i could do "better" coz tt day i actually was having fever... lol.. u all never realise ya?? .. Well nvm.. thats not the main issue..

What we realli lack of is realli teamwork and some form of mutual encouragment... if we exercies these two areas well i dun see any possibility for us to lose ba.. we cannot be 气馁 so easily but still we got to try hard..i dun tink u all want to see our church being at the bot of the table after all the matches rit?? I tink pastor willie is not realli asking too much from us.. we just had to to listen to wat jonah says and rmb STAY AT UR OWN POSITION!!! lol.. coz switching positions as and when has proven to be our fatal point ... i tink u all also had noticed that we are already not "skilled" as them liao.. and plus we keep on switching our places it realli makes defend v hard.. i dun tink u all notice how hard heman and edison was trying to defending and we all are like walking ard.. lol..

This week we gonna have another match and suprisingly is the team with the so callled "13" "14" years old players playing.. So are we going to lose so easily this time?? Well i can tell u i am not expecting a lose this time.. like wat heman say... show them the shaolin soccer... HAHA...

Sigh.. finally sat arrive liao.. tml the match gonna start le.. and i am starting to feel scared le.. haha.. tml 出洋相 on the court den gg liao.. haha.. and now my toe nail is half or sld i say three quarter torn.. lol.. and is realli digusting!! dun believe u see tml.. lol.. and is beginning to 肿起来...haiz.. whole week the nail keep clinging on dun wan to come out... YYY it choose today?? Zzz.. of so many days.. it like friday so much meh?? haha.. Arr.. i tink tml i just put a plaster and go .. LOL... hoo ... wish me gd luck!! lol.. and cya in changi hospital soon.. ^^

"With great power comes great responsibility." Does this sounds familiar to you all?? Well.. it comes from the famous Spiderman movie series.. and i am writing this coz i just watched Spiderman3 and suddenly 有感而发 thus writing this post lo.. Well, everytime i read this i had it gives me diff meaning.. when i read it the first time i just take it as some normal quotes which dun realli can attract my attention.. but as times goes by.. my frds are constantly repeating ard me and i starts to ponder abt the real meaning of this... Is it reali true that when u possess great powers like Spiderman u could to uphold great responsibilty?? Well.. it does apply in real lifes and to be exact most of the situation happening.. For instance, when we were highlighted and solo out by teachers for praises during class for doing well in exam and asked to perform at the same level next time...You might be enjoying the moment whereby the whole class is cheering for u and ur name practically appears in everyone mouth... but isn't this 无形中 applying immense pressure on u as well?? Have u ever wonder wat if the next time u cannot achieve back the same standard.. wat will happen to u?!?!.. Well.. u would probably again be the center of attention again but just that this time probably they are disscussing abt wat is the result of ur failure or even cooking up rubbish reason as to y u would get these kind of result.. You would probably would retorted back by saying this is Human Nature.. but did we ever spare a thought for the one who is trying his/ her best to cope with the pressure or simply just mock or laughter or praise from friends.. Well.. to me this kind of experience is like riding rollar-coaster... there are bound to be ups and downs but u would never know or able to predict which comes next coz u are probably block by the handbar or the person infront or do we even dare to open our eyes to see wat is infront?? So we could never foresee wat is gg to happen in the future and how ur life may become...

Many ppl or i sld narrow down the scope.. ( aunties and relatives ard me) are always saying things behind my back.. Well.. i might appear to be happy-go-lucky in person but i do have ears which i believe is another weakness of mine... i acutally hear and know a lot of things which i seriously dun wish to touch upon.. Needless to say i actually hear more bad than gd things.. thats for sure.. i tink i probably heard over 100 terms used by my relatives to describe me... lol.. Everybody seems to be against me everytime i went back to hk.. they are just like those "kiasu" aunties on the road which would just come over to u and ask how many "A's" u have.. Well my normal reply would be .. " uh.. um... quite ok! 3 A.." den i would receive the typical response " hm.. not bad " Up till here u all might think i am just too picky over these kind of things but the story haven't end... Normally they would be telling my mum this but no matter how they do it .. i will still find out coz.. is either my mum come lec me after which or they are saying too loud.. They always think that i am busy playing and fooling ard so i will not pay gd attention abt things ard me.. but well to me i tink i am the person who knows my relative most well .. coz.. i do noe things which my parent doesn't know abt my relative.. well 说到尾 they are still my relative so i better protect their rights.. =)... but i also did my part ah.. i kept quiet most of the time and cont playing my game and pretending nth had happen... if i didn't i dun wish to think what might happen liao..

Back to the story. those ppl would probably starts commenting me being too playful or fooling too much ard as usual.. Zzz.. but is that really so?! Am i realli appear to u all as that kind of person?? sometimes i realli wonder the truthness of their statement.. but i always get over with it coz i dun realli wan to bother too much coz if i did like last time whereby i actually scolded back... lol.. but thats leads to some horrible outcome which i dun wish to mention .LOL..so they might just start to saying how clever my dad and grandfather is and piling those "unknown" pressure on me.. saying things that i sld act like them.. or worst they might just start to comment abt my friends are the ones who brought my results down.. haiz.. den they will slowly link back to the very basic point that y i in poly but not Jc..Zzz.. and to i think i actually can get into JC one just that i chose not to be thr.. and they were like having the mentality that if i am not in JC then i would have no future.. but i tink if i realli go Jc i realli REALLI have no future liao.. ha.. i not saying Jc is stupid just that since i dun like to study much y can't they just let me off.. now i am doing fine in Poly ar... at the very least i am studying subjects which i am more interested in ar.. rather than just maths science and geography.. Zzz.. so y they just can't stand in my place to think as me for once.. i dun demand much.. just once is more than enough liao.. haiz..

Well Finally finish this super long post liao.. although got some more things i wanna write but i am sleepy liao.. so gtg Zzz liao.. haha.. U all can ignore this post coz is just some stupid and lame things i type out to release my bu shuang de xin qing.... lol.. but i am perfectly fine!!! HAHA... just nth to do so decided to crap ba.. HAHA..

Just came back from our "mini outing" at queensway shopping mall..... Pastor Willie.. Uncle Rex.. Uncle Alex.. Jonah..Brian.. Chris.. Tony ..Edison and me bought our respective boots thr and guess wad?? we got our boots for $25.. lol.. although is not those kind which i like v. much ... lol. but then since i am not using it that often so might as well just 将就 bah.. lol.. we also bought shin guard and socks.. haiz.. we are doing so much things for the match.. so much money spent and so much time spent planning.. this is realli the very first time i experience this kind of situation and had these kind of feelings ever since i came to the youth worship.. last time the atmosphere was always like dead air.. and u could even hear the mosquito flying!!! lol.. i am not kidding but is realli the case don't u all tink so??? lol.. but this time everything becomes the other way round.. we are no longer surrouding ard a table to 纸上谈兵 but instead this time we are gg all out .. realli !!! so it proves a significant improvment in our youth aye?? i am saying this not to offend anyone but then since this is my blog i have my rights to say wat i tink.. am i rit?? lol.. Well.. so this time since we had done so much preparation.. what we lacks now is teamwork and some motivation and encouragment.. if we had all those in us for sat.. i am sure we could do a gd job.. right guys??!!!!!... haha.. JIA YOU!!!

Erm.. yesterday night too tired to blog coz of excessive training during the Track n Field training if u all could remember... so i came back online for a while den drop onto my bed and lied thr like a dead corpse..lol.. Well.. the training is much tougher as what i had expected.. even worst than the basketball training i used to have.. lol.. requires much more energy,perseverance and will power if u were to complete their "Devil Training" lol.. Well imagining running ard the tracks 20 times for warm up.. plus sprinting for 100m for 8 times repeatedly ( btw.. i am in the Short D team )... so i am training for 100, 200 or 400 m... lol... and not forgetting skipping ard the soccer court 5 times.. and running up N down the stairs upteen times.. sigh.. lastly, when everyone is already half died.. our senior actually wanted an 100m relay with the new-comers.. and it was for the first time i know that how fast is someone who can run at the speed of the nationals.. apparently.. he is realli MAD i would say.. lol.. and imagine he is onli holds a record of sub-11.. Zzz..imagine those in the olympic.. how fast can they be.. .. lol.. Well.. i starting running b4 him coz our team was leading throughout.. but then in just a spilt second he overtake me and just sped past me like a gust of wind.. LOL.. now i noe there is a much difference between someone of a record of 10.9 sec for 100m and me who can onli run ard i tink 13? or preferbably 12.7?... lol... hm.. it might seems onli a difference of 2 sec but is a very big distance i would say if u were running ard ten steps infront of me.. lol..... haiz.. and thinking abt that .. my dream to get into the team seems half-shattered.. and on observing other newcomers.. EVEN worse.. everyone seems to be so gd.. sigh.. no comments i tink the only thing i could do is to train train train according to the coach.. or even back to the most fundamental thing... will i or do i have the determination to stay for training??? lol..